I woke up at 5am this morning to go swim at the Y. While I was on the drive back home, "Unanswered Prayers" by Garth Brooks came on the radio. This is the first time I've listened to country music on the radio since August or September of 2008. They play too many songs about relationships gone bad and losing loved ones. Who really wants to listen to that? Despite 2008 being quite possibly the worst year I've ever had, I feel like things are finally turning in the right direction. When I graduated college and accepted a full time job at Eco-Energy in December of 2007, I had a lot of big decisions to make and I buckled under the pressure. There were a lot of things that "I" still wanted to do and at the time I felt that growing up would mean I couldn't do those things anymore. So I decided to throw away relationships, a job (which i got back after all) and advice that I should've listened to, all for the sake of satisfying what I thought I needed. I remember a decorative quote on the wall of someone's house that said, "If you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans." In 2008 there were a lot of things that I thought I needed and trust me, I worked exceptionally hard at making those things happen. But at the end of the day, all my selfish desires came right back to slap me in my face. Unfortunately, there are some moments and decisions I'd like to do over but I know I'd still be in the same miserable mess if I didn't try what I did. It's funny to look back on situations where you really wanted something so badly and didn't get your way. I thought my life would be over if my plans didn't work out accordingly. But hey, I'm still alive and breathing and feeling the best I've felt in years. Some of my unanswered prayers have definitely been a blessing in disguise this year.
"Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers. Remember when you're talkin to the man upstairs. That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care. Some of Gods greatest gifts, are unanswered prayers." Garth Brooks
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someone seriously wrote that on a wall of their house??
ReplyDeletegood post. that song played on my iPod(tm) the other day while i was running near the santa monica pier. i remembered once praying for admission into law school up north. nothing against yank-land, but let's just say things worked out pretty well.
Boy do I hear you. Look at me, nearly a hundred thousand in growing student loan debt with a degree I hated and only finished because everyone told me I had to, back in school for a second time with a baby I found out I was having the first day back in school. But she's the best thing that's ever happened to me, I graduate in one week and already have a job finally doing something I love. I don't make plans anymore. :) Glad I finally clicked on your page... I kept wondering who you were.
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